You may remember Jonny from one of my previous posts, how I never got over him despite how badly he would treat me. Before I went away to Ireland I was completely 100% crazy about him, I was doing everything to make him properly notice me, everything I wore, every action and move I made was to please him. Not good. For the first time ever I admitted it to one of my best friends Ria how I truly felt about him. How I was really in love with him and how I'd do anything to get him back.
Whilst I was away, apparently the two of them got together whilst I was away. I found out through a passing comment at a friends house about them breaking up as a couple. My head was spinning when I first heard, my heart was throbbing heavily. All my thoughts were racing through my head, all my thoughts about how I felt about him, how she was the only one I confided in about anything and everything. I felt betrayed, almost heartbroken, as if I was about to cry, then I realised I didn't care. At all. All my thoughts just calmed down and stopped and it came to a halt, he was never my boyfriend he didn't care for me enough to make me his, but he clearly did care enough for her. What right did I have to be upset, he never ever loved me or cared for me. I was fine with all this however, I spent the entire next day with Ria, nervous whether she'd bring him up. After all me and Jonny were on and off for over 6 months, should my friends really get with boys I had been sleeping with and had feelings for? But she never mentioned anything at all. So I never mentioned anything and put it away to the back of my mind, forgetting everything about him, hoping I would never see him before I go to uni next week. However, I have to see him tomorrow, at a leaving party. HELP!
However, whilst discussing the situation with another close friend Hattie she was confused as to why I wasn't horribly upset about everything, saying that I do have the right to be upset and confused.
So my questions to you are:
- Would you be upset if this happened to you?
- Do I have the right to be annoyed despite the fact he was never my boyfriend?
- How would you deal with seeing the boy again?
