Wow, you're HUGE.

I'm writing this whilst sitting in Gate 7 in Heathrow Airport on my way to Ireland. I'm going to write this here and post it when I get back since I'm not going to have the internet whilst I'm over there. There's a very very cute lad sitting opposite from me in the waiting gate who reminds me horribly of Jonny.
Chavvy, stocky, cocky, cockney, full of shit, player, short(ish), slutty, ambitonless, smarmy, dickish, prick. Those were his bad points.
Sexy, funny, charming, experienced, talented, VERY well endowed, good stamina, cocky (works both ways).
Those were his good points.
There were many in between: massive flirt, persuasive, cock-sure, kinda attractive in an odd way. I never thought I'd have such a thing for a 5ft7 dark haired idiot. But hey, shit happens. All I know is I'll never let him have the upper hand over me ever again. But god I would definietly let him shag me again and again and again.
He was one sexy fuck, even though his only interest was coming, even if I didn't get anywhere near, as long as he came who cared right?
A fuck buddy should never be an actual friend in the first place. I wish i knew that then. At least I know now.
I don't have the time nor probably the space to write about my story with Jonny. Although I would love to spill all the gory details, there's just to many. I'll just list a few reasons why he's a prick:

• He was sleeping with 6 other girls at the same time as me.
• He came over to mine for the evening but then left at 7 saying that he had to go since he had a date.
• I once gave him head on a golf course, we nearly got caught. As I stood up to move further into the green, he picked up his phone and rang another girl straight away.
• He constantly compared me to his ex girlfriend.
• He never stopped talking about his ex's.
• He would leave me in the early hours of the morning in the middle of the street.
• He never let me finish.
• He led me on.
• I'd have to make all the moves, God forbid he did anything off his own back.
• I paid for everything.
• He made me feel worthless.
• He'd chat up other girls when we were out together.
• He'd chat up my friends.
• He'd try and sleep with my friends.
• He made me feel like I was his last resort.
• He made me hate myself and loose all my self esteem.
• He would pretend he didn't know me when out with his mates.

But why am I still not over him? Ughhh, it's not fair.