So 11 months on then (January - July)

Ok so I can admit to myself I had a bit of a problem with sleeping around and never quite committing to anything or anyone (or maybe never finding anyone willing to commit - its a bit of both to be honest.) But come New Years I had decided to make all this change, hoping to give myself some dignity and have self respect. And how was I going to do this? By making my New Years resolution be that I was not to have sex at all until I was in a relationship with someone I a) knew b) trusted c) had feelings for and last of all d) not someone I had met on a night out. So New Years came about, its one of the best ones I've ever had, I went back to uni for it and me and my friends got plastered. I would say I drank the majority of a bottle if SoCo and a full bottle of Cinzano and god I was pretty much gone. Midnight came and went and we were out in the club dancing away to motley crue with my friends and theirs, and well that's when I met Sam, my mate Sy's friend from home. All I did was drunkenly introduce myself to him on the dance floor after I caught him staring at my chest (not the best of ways to meet someone I admit) but hey ho, the next song came about and everyone was dancing in a circle with their arms around each other, when suddenly i found Sam next to me. eventually the song finished and everyone broke off the circle, I took one step back, Sam turned to look at me, smiled and then all of a sudden his tongue was halfway down my throat. Seconds later I was against the wall perched on the ledge with him between my thighs, minutes later we were back at my flat with him well and truly between my legs. My poor resolution was broken then and there about an hour and 45 into the New Year, ashamed of myself is one word but blimey the sex was utterly mid blowing! That boy knew how to move his hips! He said my favourite thing I've ever heard a man say: "how many times have you come yet?" (me: "err three times I think") "sweet, lets see if I can give ya a few more." There were also some horrifically cheesy lines uttered on his part, which to be honest are far far to cringing to ever write down! But as per usual it was nothing more than a one night stand. And well life carried on and the resolution was put back into place.
Guess what I didn't have sex, or meet any guys for months. It wasn't until March I think that I even kissed another guy. Not until the night I met Jamie. Jamie needs his own post since he did eventually become my boyfriend for a short while. But things with him finished as quickly as they started and I was single once again. Plus I also still hadn't had sex since New Years, but that I gave up since I was devastated from my break up and sex seemed the perfect way to try and heal a broken heart.... how wrong I was.
Between April and June I had three one night stands. first was with Jonny again just before the royal wedding. The second was with a friend, a beautiful James Dean wannabe called Adam who was far too full of himself and too much like Jonny for my liking.... but he was pretty. All tall, manly, covered in tattoos and so funny. I haven't even heard or seen from him since.
My last was Dave, a stranger, a boy in a bar. A beautiful, quite romantic (strangely), caring and brilliantly incredibly amazing shag which I never expected. I have very little to say about Dave since I barely knew him, but what I do know is that his Sean Connery impressions are completely irritating so much so I had to kiss him to make him stop. Cute, tall, dark haired, confused and cautious. Never saw him again which was a shame, but trust me when I go back to uni in September I'll be keeping my eye out for him.

So here I am now having almost fully filled you in on my year, still single, still waiting, still hoping.

So 11 months on then (September - December)

Well these last 11 months have been mad, especially where lads have been concerned. Not going to lie I took full advantage of my first year of university as a single girl and I definitely sampled the water if you know what I mean! So I thought I'd fill you all in, but in two parts, firstly because its a lot of information for someone to take in all at once and secondly well, I'm trying to remind myself of what has even happened. So here you go here's September through to December:

So to start, 3 weeks into being at uni in September I slept with a beautiful rugged young man called Hunter who unfortunately turned out to have a girlfriend who he had forgotten in his drunken state, but bless him he was so upset about possibly hurting her if she was to ever find out. Our friendship really suffered after that unsurprisingly, but i did get to meet the girlfriend who turned out to be completely my sort of person and absolutely lovely. oh dear, oh well, life goes on.
A few days later (ok I know its a little slutty but I'm young and I'm not proud of it) I slept with another boy Jake. Totally different from any guy I'd ever met before, this guy was completely crazy. Which all in all just led to amazing sex. He was definitely the best I've ever had! We continued to sleep with each other unexclusively for the next few months until just before the Christmas break where he found himself a new girlfriend. Not gunna lie I was slightly gutted, I always had a lot stronger feelings for him than I ever admitted, but in the few attempts we had at making ourselves more of an item it never worked: I wanted a boyfriend, someone to care for and spend time with. He wanted someone to drink and have sex with. Was a shame but we've remained really good friends to this day.
Now I couldn't re-tell the story of my first year without mentioning Floppy. Floppy bless him, turned out to have issues: trust issues, extreme anger issues, even erectile issues. Hence the unfortunate nickname floppy. We were getting together, then we weren't, then we were and so on and so forth. Floppy was a handsome handsome guy, who when it came to his time to shine in the bedroom, completely flopped and reacted in a way I wasn't expecting, he just laughed it off kissed me and apologised. But days later became irate, angry and to be honest a bit of a bitch. The two of us ended up exchanging harsh words and neither has spoken to the other since,which is a shame... oh wait maybe not he was a nutter after all.
When I returned home at Christmas I once again slept with the utter arse Jonny who has now been previously mentioned twice within this blog. He is after all my safety shag who I return to when there is no one else on the scene, when I just need my mindless fun as I try to forget that I ever had feeling for the boy. We have a horrible cycle we have now been going through for almost 2 years now, I'll explain it another day.

An apology and a return

Ok, so since I've been away to uni I've been utterly crap at writing this blog, disastrous even. I haven't done one single post in about 11 months and I'm sorry. I'm one of those people who become obsessed with something for a short while and the the novelty wears off. But from now on (I'm setting myself a mid year resolution) I'm gunna keep this up and not get bored of my own thoughts. I need to learn how to run a project right through to the end and not just give up when things don't go my way or aren't as exciting as they used to be.
So here I go, I'm throwing myself headfirst back into the blogging world. God help us all...