Now just because this is titled "My First" doesn't mean it's about loosing my virginity. No one needs to here that story trust me. This is about my first proper boyfriend Jamie.
As a twenty year old I am willing to admit that I find it a little pathetic that I have never ever, and I mean never ever had a boyfriend before. Not one that lasted a few weeks, days, hours or minutes. Jamie was well and truly my first. And I am so happy it was him and no other. But so sad that he's now gone and a part of somebody else life instead.
We met at a time when I had completely lost my self confidence, I would be lying if I did not say it was him who gave it back to me. This was a stage where I was completely aware of every single fault I had with my appearance whether it be a large one or even minute, I just wasn't happy with who I was at all. But randomly one Saturday night I decided enough was enough, I was just gonna head out and make myself have a good night. So endless amounts of cider later me and my friends left the flats and headed out to the local bars where even more was consumed.
Now I have a dirty addiction. Smoking. Yes I realise how bad it is for me, yes I know how dirty it looks. But oh my, I do love it and I'm not giving it up anytime soon if I can help it! Now being the dirty smoker that I am I spent most of that night outside in the bar's smoking area, and well if it wasn't for my dirty smokers cough I would never have met Jamie. Along came my cough, and all of a sudden this very cute dark floppy haired guy sitting next to me turned into me, asked me if I was okay and if I wanted a drink and smiled at me this massive cheeky smile. I was besotted from that first glance.
From that night on me and Jamie texted each other constantly, met up a few times a day and well three days later he asked me to be his girlfriend. I have never smiled like I did that night or been as excited about the future. We decided to take things slowly and not to sleep together for a while. Things were perfect, until we seemed to hit a snag a few weeks down the line.
But unfortunately it all ended as quickly as it started. He cheated on me and left me for her. I was devastated to say the least, but i made sure i was gracious and remained the better person, keeping my dignity and not turning into a psychotic bitch at any stage.
We tried to remain friends for a while, but it didn't really work out which was a shame since we had always got on so well. I missed him for a long time, but now I've worked out i miss the security of a relationship and the affection more than the boy himself. After all who wants to be with a guy who cheats...
As a twenty year old I am willing to admit that I find it a little pathetic that I have never ever, and I mean never ever had a boyfriend before. Not one that lasted a few weeks, days, hours or minutes. Jamie was well and truly my first. And I am so happy it was him and no other. But so sad that he's now gone and a part of somebody else life instead.
We met at a time when I had completely lost my self confidence, I would be lying if I did not say it was him who gave it back to me. This was a stage where I was completely aware of every single fault I had with my appearance whether it be a large one or even minute, I just wasn't happy with who I was at all. But randomly one Saturday night I decided enough was enough, I was just gonna head out and make myself have a good night. So endless amounts of cider later me and my friends left the flats and headed out to the local bars where even more was consumed.
Now I have a dirty addiction. Smoking. Yes I realise how bad it is for me, yes I know how dirty it looks. But oh my, I do love it and I'm not giving it up anytime soon if I can help it! Now being the dirty smoker that I am I spent most of that night outside in the bar's smoking area, and well if it wasn't for my dirty smokers cough I would never have met Jamie. Along came my cough, and all of a sudden this very cute dark floppy haired guy sitting next to me turned into me, asked me if I was okay and if I wanted a drink and smiled at me this massive cheeky smile. I was besotted from that first glance.
From that night on me and Jamie texted each other constantly, met up a few times a day and well three days later he asked me to be his girlfriend. I have never smiled like I did that night or been as excited about the future. We decided to take things slowly and not to sleep together for a while. Things were perfect, until we seemed to hit a snag a few weeks down the line.
But unfortunately it all ended as quickly as it started. He cheated on me and left me for her. I was devastated to say the least, but i made sure i was gracious and remained the better person, keeping my dignity and not turning into a psychotic bitch at any stage.
We tried to remain friends for a while, but it didn't really work out which was a shame since we had always got on so well. I missed him for a long time, but now I've worked out i miss the security of a relationship and the affection more than the boy himself. After all who wants to be with a guy who cheats...
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